Greetings from

NOT ALL THERE

This is the place
where demons drool
over petty rule
leaving you all alone
while your mind fades and erodes
between the thickness of steel and stone.

This is the place
where sadness stains
the looks on our faces
and where madness remains
in the hearts and minds of the opposite races.

This is the place
of misery and despair
locked down in a cell
with nothing to lose
and without a single care.
This is the place where we are all here
‘cuz we are not all there.

Coyote 2008
Ely State Prison
TABLE OF CONTENTS:

1) NOT ALL THERE (INSIDE COVER)

2.) INTRODUCTION TO PART ONE

3.) NOTE FROM MY COMRADE MARCUS
4.) E.S.P. THE BASIC RUNDOWN

5.) SOLITARY ENSLAVEMENT

6.) APPLY YOURSELF

7.) MADNESS

8.) THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS

9.) THE CASE OF THE CASEWORKERS
10.) THE SPIRIT OF RESISTANCE

11.) GENERAL POPULOCKDOWN

12.) THERE'S NO LOVE HERE

13.) KUMITE

14.) BUT UNTIL THEN

15.) THE WRITING'S ON THE WALL

16.) THE EAGLE AND THE SOW

17.) BEWARE OF THE GRIMALKIN

18.) DEAR MR. CORRECTIONAL OFFICER
19.) THE THOUGHTS OF AN EXILE

20.) IN SOLITUDE I SUFFER

21.) FREE YOUR MIND

22.) ON HEART

23.) DESPAIR

24.) BURIED ALIVE

25.) STAGNATION

26.) TODAY IS A GOOD DAY TO LIVE

27.) WE MUST KEEP RESISTANCE IN OUR HEARTS
28.) LIFE IS GOOD

Published on November 20, 2009 by Anthony Rayson
@nticopyright / free to prisoners / ABC - Driven
INTRODUCTION TO PART ONE q

“Greetings from the Graveyard" is a 3 part zine | want to use as tool to
awareness about the oppressive struggles that prisoners here
security prison (Ely State Prison) have to endure. Hopefully in so doing, it wil aso
shed light on the struggles of prisoners al over America. 1 wan o use shis 3 part sine,
not only to raise awareness, but also o gain support from sincere, dedicated people and

activists on the outs.

Itis important that people on both sides of the razor-wire understand the struggles,
atrociies, injustices, and oppression that people i prison face. In all honesty, this s &
crooked, corrupt, and inhumane system where we ar being warchouscd. There s no
rehabilitation in these prisons, no programs, no health care, no love, no support. This
entire American Judicial System i foul and corrupt. It s designed 10 oppress the poor
and people of color. 1t just a cruel merciless system where racism, viojence,and
sadism take place everyday

1 wanted 10 break dhis zine down t0 3 sections,to shed light on 3 different aspects of
the prison struggle. This first section is made up entirely of my latest writings. 1 write
these pieces to give people 3 clear understanding of how barbaric and primitive this
system on the inside s, and how most prisoners assume violent mentalites and
predatory ways jus to endure. Violence s glorified,respected, honored, and bragged
sbout i this psychopathic environment. There' really no halthy, productive ey for
8 10 be reformed while living in this sadistic, oppressive environment

1 try 0 shine the sporlight on this type of vilent predatory mentaliy ina couple of
these essays, such as *Central PopuLockdown", and “Madness™ 1 wrote those pot a5 an
imprisoned radical intellectul, but from the perspective of a convict who once took up
the means of violence as a survival mechanism. | want people to see all diflrent sdes
and different types of mentalties that we take up as the everyday "norm® in thesc.
dungeons,

Also, some of these writings were written as "Helease Therapy’ for me. These were
instances where I was using the paper and pen as an avenue to elease my frustrations,
anger, and stress. This can be seen in essays ike *Writings on the Wall, and *Dear
Mr. Correctional Officer” just to name 2 couple

1 want people (o understand that it hard for us 1 rise above this madness and to
overcome these violent, predatory incntalites s hard, but s necessary ffwe are t0
hold on to a sense of what's left of r humanity. It necessary for our communitie,
society and humanity. We trly and sierely need outsde support. We need people to
getinvolted in ourlives and in our struggles. We need people 10 give us genuine e
and support. These warm rays of e v what heep ussane n here, ke o going in
here,and keep us alive and human in here.

We need peaple to send us ltters, accept our phone call, come visit us, and most
importrandly, ciud us books 5o that we can use this time to educate/ recducate
ourselves and ibrate our minds. 1 s through books, lteraure,education, and study
that we become conscious. Consciousncss s & saviour. 15 what enables w6 rise
above this madness and change our ways of thinking from violent, criminalise
predatory and unproductive thoughts to a more halthy, honest, wise, productice, and
ruthfl outlook on lfe. With this vutlook and a conscious level of thinking, we begin
0 understand on a more clar, truthful and active level. Conscious people don't do

stupid things. Conscious people have a true appreciation and respect for lfe and

humanity. This is why I'm always passing out zines and lterature and giving books
away to other prisoners in here. This is why I'm always writing zines and literature of

my own: to raise consciousness i the hearts and minds of my fellow prisoners.

o, sincerely want for this first zine to help people on the outs to understand what we
are going through in these graveyards called prisons. 1 need people to understand why
we need help from from the outs and what kind of help we need. Love can conquer hate.
Love can help and love can heal. And that's what we need: love, healing, and support.

T want this zine to inspire peopl o start getting involved in our lives and our
struggles in real and meaningful ways. Help us help ourselves, because we cannot’
expect the people who imprison us to help us. If you are an activist, get involved in a
real struggle. 1f you are not an activist, now is your chance to become one. We need
sincere, dedicated, compassionate people to get involved in our plight.

‘As always, my writings are for people on both sides of the walls.

In solidarity and with respect,
Coyore
ABC-Nevada Prison Chapter

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IN JusT US

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NOTE FROM MY COMRADE MARCUS

To become aware of these atrocities, one must first become introduced
to the 3 Ws: World, War, and Warehouses. Once one becomes
famillarized with these three, you'll then find that we are all prisoners
with fike struggles. Therefore, we are all subjected to the same
institution and its forced mentalities of insane thinking. The relevance of
this institution is it needs for us to become reliant upon its mechanisms.
Like a clock ticking away and we're the sprockets turning its gears. It
needs us to keep in tune to its tock. For without us, it cannot function.
The clock takes extreme measures against all resistance

These prison warehouses, for some, is the beginning of its extreme
measures; and for others, it s the end. Those on the outs are subjected
to wars and fighting for the continuous reign of capitalism. And some are
just plainly confined to the world and its oppression, living as puppets till
death, finding that in the end, it costs way too much to die. Lives pay
dearly for war bullets, while the institution hails on and on. The
warehouses destroy human nature with no compassion towards our well-
being. And the institution hails on and on, biting its own tail for
nourishment. And we come straight from its ass as its substance
E5P. THE BASIC RUNDOWN 6

£l State Prison 1 3 5o caled maximum secuty ison that was opend n 1989 ut i the muadie of
‘nownere. outside ofa small miner's town called Ey Nevada. T prisan s surtounced b the
mOuntaINS of Nevada' Great Basin. There are mountains on ol s of this prson. 1 vry
‘seciudea and a four hour dive o anyof the nearest mayorcies

"There are eight unis i tis prson (nt incucing the ifimary and the camp that s outsde ofthe
Drison) and all bt one unt 1 ockea Gown. W | came here i 1998 (o batleryon 8 conecionas
officer, s prison was sl oened up, o less esincred | shoud say

Units 1.2:3,300 4 are ll dscpinary segregation uns, aso known 35 the hole”. There are 2 wings
O €3CT UL "Awing’ 30 “B-wng’ There 8 conio pod n betweah each wing (n ESP evenybooy
ol the control p0d the buoble’). The oficer i the control pod can mantor bot wings an
communicate wih s (or eavesdrop on ue) thrcugh the tercom.

Unt 34 nouses ai eatn ow nmates, they gt Lo come out together, n sections,for e ime and
E/0UP 810 (12 M o a ime). Ut 38 1 The hoe" or Giscipnary segregaion unt,1nat houses death
oW InMales who are doing ik Ume” (or “D.S. me"). and death fow mates wha are on protecuve
U100y Status, a1 50 houses some ofth regula inmates (non Geath 1ow) who re G ole

Al roughaut these iferent discplinarysegregation uns there are protectiv custody inmates, sl
Pouse sniches, and psychpatients housed o1 the Same Lers a5 mates who come back here from
£6neral population 100 thei hle time. This creates a wew atmosphere and'a funny sye
enwonment.

Unts 6.7, 300 8 are il considerea General Population (.9, but unt 85 the ony un hat '
‘0pen. Uni § inmaes get uer ime and they al et to come out ogether on the bigyars. et af iose.
inmates are Blowea (0 Nave oGS that SuppOTt and uphold the operatons o the prison. They gt 0
wOrh i (he e, i e launcry, on yard 3bor crews, some are aowed jobs a6 barvers e come.
10 the aferent s and cut the inmates' har

Ui 5.6, 30 7 were once General Poputation urts, but now tha s prison 1 siammed cown | cal
2 General Popuiochdown” We e allowed a few exra prvieges* 3nd accommodations tha we can't
111 (he hole L. or example. we can wear our Bues 1 the nole we re ony sowed tanies
S00Ks, oxers, and an orange jumpsut). We can oder ey crat and ge s off e commesary
hat we Can buy in the hole. Inorder 10 gt o of the hoe and go o General Popusociconn,the
‘caseworkers say that we have 1 ind a cetle. You have o nave someone 1 v wih. Somesne ot
70 will e locked down wilh n the cefl for 23 hours a day. s crazy. This i .8 one

In e 10 yearsFve been hre. Ve seen tis place g0 (1 bad Lo worse. Siowl but suely, heyve
13Ken 50 many (ings away I1om us and they e creatng an even mare hopeless stuston or s Eacry
me thngs change around her, hey aways change f0f th worst.

s 505t 3 Dasic rundown of what 5 ke here 3 .5.P. nght now. But there's been widespread
umors that things are about 10 change in Octaberof s year (2008) Th rmors nave ot ey
0110 Shut Gwn uni 8.and bing it campers from the e 10 work i imate 1o the Keay
he prison funcloning. I these rumors ae rue, s gonna be all bad o all of us. No poger ot
misery.

Copote
Esp.
August 2008

There grows a kind of intolerance for injustice and
cruelty and malice and capriciousness. There grows an
inability to offer fake and fearful smiles to the insulting
and petty pigs, to put your chin against your chest and
pretend you don’t see, and take it and take it and take it.
You develop a sense of dignity and self-worth and none of
the fascists’ punishments or threats or sanctions can
drive those things out of you.

Sean Swain
SOLITARY ENSLAVEMENT 7

....We sit in these cells like dead
bodies sit in cemeteries Death fills
our lungs, fills our minds, fills our
hearts and fills our souls as it lurks
and lingers and seeps through the
concrete. Our minds go numb and our
spirits fade into inactivity. We sit
here waiting to waste away, erode,
dissolve, and disappear into the cracks
of the cement.

Solitary confinement. What an evil
concept, what a wicked notion, what a
clever way to destroy a man without
even laying a finger on him. Solitary
confinement -- the murderer of minds,
hearts, and souls. The person who
designed such an evil conception
must've had murder on his mind and hate
in his heart.

We die alone in these cold cells, as
our hands stretch out to clutch
concrete, but fail miserably to hold
anything in their grasp other than the
death-stenched air. We die alone -- a
lonely, miserable, suffering death. We
die alone......

Changing systems is ineffectual not only because an
opposite system is still a system but also, most
importantly, only the political and economic structures
are altered, while the fundamental paradigm - one of
control and domination, remains intact.

Carolyn Baker
APPLY Yourself 3

They say you earnsometting new everyday,but 40 you really? | see people osing theic minds everyday
and sometmes it seems ik the people who keep us hre wan our minds 0 stayStagnant whie we are
1 here,but s reall not up o them, I up 1 us. s up o each and every on of us 1 take e srdes
10 educaie and elevate ourseles s up 1o each and everyone ofus n ere o take true stdes 15
iberate our minds, ibeate our souts through books, through knowedee, through the connection we.
Make with others. s p 1o each and every e ofus 1o getour minds ght and our game it For hose
wh choose o stay tuck on stupkd whie thy st here and duell ere, hat's up 1 then I thats what
they choose 10 do,then tha'son them. I'ss3d 1o see, and s hard o b around people ke that, but
what can you do?

Man, e been through so much, up here n €.5.P. for 10 years and fve been through it i Allthe ups nd.
downs, l the rot,conficts nd trggles, ve ot the mai room offces hating on me, fckin wit oy
mail and trying 0 make my e 3 iving hell becauseof theznesthat | create, znes e i one rght hre
(“Greetigs from the Graveyard").fve got the officers appealing to the assstant warden ring 10 get me.
EhIOWn on H.R.P.Satus (Hgh isk Pisoner) for my laest ~sss3lton n oficer and for verytnng e

Fve been through i the past 10 years

117y 0 do §00d, but when they see me trying 10 do good they ry to make tharderfor me; when thy see
¥ doing good they ahways ry o i some perty offnse o wrte me up for. o 13 hard 1o maitat,
afer i the shtFve been through, nd go trough.

There's been many times when | wanted 1 do igh and was making aneffort 1 do good and then
Something would g0 wrong and dsip up and just ke that d be backn the hle for another swaul s
‘easy for my family and rends o ellme, jus do good just ignor them, justdon't feed nto .- bt they
COukd never understand th Strugles tht g0 through i here. When you're Iing amongst all s
foulness and misery sometimes s hard o maintan your focus. I hard t cae about things wher
YOU'e ning i 2 word where nabody caes. ' hard o cae whe nobody around you e sbout you
‘3nd when some of these people dor' even care aboutthemseives. I astrugee o do gt when.

‘o theimportance of making real connectons with people o th outs. ee that when you Uy o clate
2nd educate yoursell whie g amongst s this tagnaton ad deterioaton,you re g s e
2ctof resistance.Resistance st aways about casing with the uthorties, o pysicalyghting the
system, because unde these circumstances you're only burying yoursll decper ina hole every tine you
et violent. Fue been vilen the whole time e been incarcrated and sometimes i wesnecesso o
me tobe vilen, but €ven though s kept my head o 0010 my shoukdes & has proonged oy

S0, when Yo take true sres 1 educate a0 sevse yoursell whie ing under hesedreary and gloomy
£ 3y you are partcipating n s heakierac of resistance, because by dong sy
resising itelectua eath and you' 1 asoresisting speital famine. You e becoming conscious e
ol ofnorance and hatred. You ar taking troe srides o

1t is important for s 0 1y 10 make meaningll connectons with people on th outs 100, because nobory
i here cares about you one way or the ther. There's nolove here. Th love here & eamed, 10t o e
Love shouldn'tbe eared, tha'sno rue ove. That's prisonkove. I no the good Kind of kove, Prison
fove s arficial, i comes ad it goes an then has o b eamed all over again, i st gven freey here
%0 compassion i th type o love you'l fnd inprison. ut we can get tht from people o th outs, they
can help us,they can heal s, thy canshow usove, friendship and compassion. That'sthey type o ove
‘we need, tha's the type ofove thats goig o help us endure and graw and develop and bossom and
those ae th typeof people who are going o gt s through this and eyond this miserabl, onely
‘exisence o prison e. We need ove from the peaple on th outs, ‘cuz thatstue ove, not ke this
artifcial, condensed stffyou gt I here We need ralove andreal support

Maybe the people who keep us here want 10 keep our minds sagnan, maybe they st don't care one
Way o the othr. But thefac f the atie is we, ourselvs have 0 t3ke e and healty srdesto rse
abovethe madnes and stagnation that we Ive and suffr hrough every dy. | feelthat having our minds
stagnant whie in prison s not ol an njustice 0 oursehes, butan ustic 1 socety (after we get out
of prson) and an justic to humanty. i defitely makes you quesion the role of prsons n America and
it makes you question the ntertions of those who areintent on lcking s up and busking more prisons.

1 clea thatthey o care about us. i lea that we have (0 take upon ourseles o rise above this
madness.

15t here i tis el rying o cltwate my i 3n tryin 10 encourage others todo the same. We wse
his time o ge our minds rightand our game tght, rying 10 ise above al of this mental and spiiual
‘oppression. We try o make the best out o bad suaton,akingthe §00d withthe bad, making sure we
¢ back on our feet after each time we stumble and ol s stoing 10 move forward, owards the
imaginary ight at the end of the magiary tunne,because I’ a about perseverance and survva, And
Y5, You co earm sometting new everyday 1 you have the desir fo do so. ustbecause they want usto
Stay stagnant in here, et mean we have (0 tayingsharp and saying Strong f what we should im.
0 do. Don'tlose your mind,use your mind! Appl yoursel

105t i heretyin 1 tay o the sharp side!
Copote

£ State Prson, By, Nevada
ctober 27°, 2008

“Vour woy begins onthe other sde.
Become th sy

Toke on e o the pron wll escope
Wolkou ke somebody bom ino ol
Do/t now” - Rumi, 800 years ag0

Pleasewrit 10 me and send me etersof sliarity and encouragement.
Corote sheft 155671

P.0. Box 1989

El, Nevada 893011989

No other life-form on the planet knows negativity, only
humans, just as no other life-form violates and poisons
the earth that sustains it... Watch any plant or animal
and let it teach you acceptance of what is, surrender to
the Now. I have lived with several Zen masters - all of
them cats.

Eckhart Tolle
MADNESS 1o

AS | SIT HERE IN THIS CELL OR WHATEVER IT 1S | FIND MYSELF WISHING THAT THEY
WOULD COME AND GET ME AND TAKE ME TO PRISON. | SAY THAT, BECAUSE ALL OF THIS
WIERDNESS AROUND HERE AND AL OF THE FOULNESS | SEE. | DON'T KNOW WHERE
1M AT ANYMORE.

LATELY. | HAVEN'T BEEN TALKING ON THE TIER ANYMORE. | KNOW THAT THERE ARE AT
LEAST 20 PROTECTIVE CUSTODY INMATES LOCKED DOWN ON THIS TIER RIGHT NOW,
SITTING IN THE HOLE WITH ME. WHAT | DN KNOW 1S HOW MANY OF THEM ARE.
INFORMING FOR THE PIGS O HOW MANY OF THEM ARE SITTING BACK AN LISTENING
TO EVERYTHING WE SAY. SO, LATELY. IVE CHOSEN TO STAY GUIET AND ALOE. 1T
WOULD BE NICE IF THERE WERE A COUPLE CONSCIOUS PRISONERS CLOSE 10 ME.
THERE WOULD BE PLENTY TO DISCUSS, BUT, THEYVE GOT ME STRANDED AND.
'STRAINED UP RIGHT NOW AND | DON'T HAVE NOTHING TO PROVE. THEREFORE. | HAVE
NOTHING TO SAY.

“THE PRISONERS ARE SO FRIENDLY WITH THE POLICE AROUNO HERE. IT SCARES ME.
THE FOULNESS DISGUSTS ME, DISTURBS ME. MAKES ME SICK. | HATE 1118 PLACE. THS
PLACE USED TO BE MY STOMFING GROUNDS. I'VE SENT MANY PIGS AWAY, ETHER.
BLEEDING O COVERED WITH FECES, AND YES. THEY HAD IT COMING! IV DONE DEEDS
THAT COULD BE BRAGGED ABOUT FOR YEARS N THIS SETTING, THIS PUACE. BUT |
KNOW IF | HAD A REASON TO LASH OUT AND DO SOMETHING T THEGE IGS RIHT
NOW. THE PRISONERS AROUNO HERE WOULD LOK AT ME LIKE (' CRAZY. THEY.
WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND THE CONCEFT OF STANDING UP TO THE MaN, NG, OT ON
THiS TIER.

| SIT UP IN THIS CELL AND | READ. | STUDY. | WRITE, | KEEP MYSELF BUSY AND | APPLY
MY KNOWLEDGE AS OFTEN AS | CAN. FUCK THIS PLACE, THESE PEOPLE. FUCK WrAT.
THEY THINK, FUCK WHAT THEY DO, | GOTTA SHAKE IT OFF AND CONTINGE 10 B8 Who |
AM. |CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW MUCH THIS PLACE FILLS ME WITH DISGUST. IT HAS BECOME
SICKENING TO BE HERE. | NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE, | NEED TO CLEANSE My SO0

OR GET HIGH. OR SOMETHING. CUZ T 1S BECOMING VERY VERY DIFFIGULT 16 DEAL WiTH
THIS MADNESS.

IF THERE'S SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO'S READING THIS. SOMEONE WHO CARES, PICK
UP A PEN AND WRITE TO ONE O THE PRISONERS WHO HAS PLACED AN ARTICLE IN TS
ZINE, SHOW US SOME LOVE, GIVE US SOME ENCOURAGEMENT. SEND LS SOME BOOKS,
HELP US RISE ABOVE THIS MADNESS. WE NEED YOUR SUPPORT. WE NEED 10 HAVE.
REAL CONTACT, COMMUNICATION. AND TRUTHFUL RELATIONSHIPS-MEANINGFUL
'CONNECTIONS WITH PEOPLE ON THE OUTSIDE. WE'VE BEEN CUT OF FROM LOVE.
'SOCIETY, LIFE, COMMUNITY. FAMILIY, AN FRIENDS. AND BEEN CONFINED 10 4 CORNER
‘OF COLDNESS AND DARKNESS. WE NEED YOUR SURPORT. WE NEED YouR.
COMPASSION.

FROM THE DEPTHS OF THESE DREGS
Covore
ELY STATE PRISON, NEVADA|
2008

IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO WRITE ME. | CAN
BE CONTACTED AT THIS ADDRESS:
COYOTE SHEFF #55671

P.O.Bux 1989

ELY.NV 893011989

BLINDED JusTice
THAT'S WHAT HAPEENS n

Your heart turns into stone, your soul turns into
ice, and your mind turns into jelly. That's what
happens when you sit and sit and sit in one of
these cells, that's what happens when love leaves
you, its what happens when you stop trying. Its a
constant cycle of torture. Its a constant battle,
a never-ending struggle. One day you feel good,
the next day you feel bad. You go through so much
conflict and turmoil with yourself, it nearly kills
you. You can feel a deep sense of mental anguish
and a deep sense of spiritual torment. It hurts so
bad, it tears you up into little pieces, it scars
you, and it destroys you inside.

You're filled with hate, rage, and vengeance.

You want to kick the pigs head in, the same way
they kick on your door. You become suspicious of
others, and parancid., You begin to think they're
talking about you, you think they're out to get
you, out to rob, steal, or cheat you. You're
losing your fucken mind.

That's what happens when you sit and fester and
marinate in one of these cells for hours at a time,
days at a time, months at a time, years at a time.
That's what happens when your heart stops finding a
real reason to beat, that's what happens when you
quit resisting. Your heart breaks a thousand
times, you lose your cool. You lose your mind,
your soul freezes and you die inside, you fucken
die.

My name is Coyote and my heart
still beats with love and
resistance. But there's been times

when it would skip a beat or two, or
three...

January 22, 2008
THE CASE OF THE CASEWORKERS 2

The caseworkers here at Ely State Prison have
become 5o good at lying that it scares me. They're
always out to give us the classic run around, just to see
us running in circles like a dogs chasing their tails. I've
trained myself not to believe anything they say and
never get my hopes up. | am able to live with the
understanding that there isn't very much | have
coming from them. | know these people don't care
about me, they don't care about my problems in life
or what the hell I'm going through. They're not going
to help me, they're not here for that. These lying
caseworkers are so full of shit, they can keep on
walking past my cell to the next one. I'm cool right
here. Fuck 'em.

The Spirit of Resistance

Those who live in fear of authority, five in savery. Mental savery, psychological slavery,
and even physical slavery. Those who live in fear of authority are in a prison al of their
‘own. A prison of their own making.

1am a prisoner to concrete and steel, but | am not imprisoned by fear. | do not conduct
‘myself with those who are in fear of authority. We who live in prison are sure to not
allow the walls to chip away at our existence; but with our spirit and attitude of
resistance we chip away the walls and barriers that presume to behold us.

The thoughts that seep to the strengthened center of our well-being were created from
the sheer will to survive under drastic crcumstances. We are refined by hardships when
befriended by darkness and we come out strengthened in the center and sharp around

the edges, ready to cut through our bonds with a diligent ease.

tis will power that guides us through these soppy situations. It s the spiit of
resistance that keeps us alive and well. We are not imprisoned by our fears, we are
determined to perservere.

€l Coyote
ABC - Nevada Prison Chapter
June 77, 2008
GENERAL POPULOCKDOWN 13

At the time of this writing, I've been here at £ly state
prison for 2 solid 10 years. 1've. been through i1’ the
motions, 211 the ups and downs, all the trisle and
tribulations. T've been in fights, I ve sent ofricers to
the hospital, T've been sent 1o the hole For atibicy
stabbings, I've fought with the goon squad en’ es]
extractions, I've participated in riote. and s'ee
demonstrated a1l kinds of acts of regl reeisiasce. I've
been shot, gassed, tazed--you name 1, 1 ve been thraugh it
3

wherever I go in this prison, I am locked down. There's
only one unit in this prison that isn't Tocked down and the
Caseworkers and wardens say that I am not eligible for that
ait because of my history of nstitutional Wolence: Al]
Of v, visits have been behind glass for almost 9 years now.
They won't Tet me have contact visits with my. family or
friends because of my history of institutional yiolince.

50 1 am stuck, whether I'am in the hole, or in ‘Genere]
populockdown”, it doesn't matter, they will not give me any
type of breathing room.

S0, other than the fact that I will one day be released
from prison, T have no incentive to do good. or. folloy
their petty rules. I have no hope, nothing'to ook forward

© 590 Be here in 1y state prison unti] I'gohome,
stuck in a cell, on 23 hour lock down, trying Yo maintain
and keep from 1osing my cool. It's hard, sometimes 1t s a
real struggle. when you're Confined to these cells for
Jong periods of time, your thinking gets a bit distorced
and it can take one little thing to Set you off. when rage
and aggression set in, you go flying off the handle before
even thinking twice about it. Its'a psychological struggle
37d we are wp against great odds.
This place has the ability and the tendency to do great
anounts of damage to our psyche and our minds. e are
Tiving in a real-Tive man-made hell.

we need people on the outs to show their concern and get
invalved, in our 1ives and struggles. we need people to
send s letters and books and give us hope and sonething to
Jook forward to. We need peaple on the outs to accept qur
calls and give us good, healthy,productive conversations to
get our minds off of this sick, demented place for a 11ctie
while. We need people to care about us and about what
we're going through in here. We need support from people
on the outside.

The psychological torment that takes place in this prison
can be unbearable at times. If our souls are out of fume.
and our minds aren’t strong and if our hearts are in the
wrong place, then we are lost to this cold, desolate

darkness. It takes a lot of strength and a good amount of
resistance to get through this.
Listen up! There's nothing cool about this place, there's
nothing cool about being here. This place sucks.

coyote 2008 i
Ely state Prison.

THERE'S NO LOVE HERE

In the depths of these dregs where our souls dwell in
darkness as our minds dwindle like dust in the wind, we sit
here with sad looks on our faces, waiting for a letter in the
mail or a hot meal to be served. Waiting, waiting, waiting,
always waiting for something, but it seems like nothing ever
comes. Nothing good, anyways.

There's no love here. Not in this artificial world of concrete
and steel, surrounded by razor wire, and gun towers, which
are enclosed by mountains on all sides. There's no love in
these confinements, just a lot of hate, anger. agony,
hopelessness, loneliness and despair. The closest thing
you'll find to love in here, is pain.

There's no love here, no sunshine, no fresh air. But if you
open your eyes long enough to see, you will find that there is
plenty of destruction, depression, aggression, torment,
suffering, and death. The coldness that permeates the
atmosphere seeps through our skin to our bones and chills
our soul. We've been discarded by society, separated from
our families, left to sit, suffer, rot, and die. They don't care,
so we don't care. There's no love here.

Coyote, 2008
Anarchist Black Cross, Nevada
Prison Chapter E.S.P.
KUMITE 15

‘When we ise we fight, all day, all night, we fight. We fight to overcome, we fight to five,
we fightto survive, we fight to win, we fight to prevail Everyday is a fight, a struggle, a
challenge, everyday is battle. We ght and fight and fight. Struggle, and strive and
thrive to survive. We fight with one another, we fight against our captors, we fight the
system, we fight oppression, we fight hunger, we fight agony, we fight depression. We
train, spar and prepare. There's no breaks, no time-outs, no tapping out, no quitting, no
Biving up. Fight, fight, fight. We fight to change, we fight to rise above the madness, we.
fight to make it through. Man-up, handie-up, face up to every challenge and to every
challenger. s a mental kumite, it's a spiritual kumite, it's an emotional kumite, i’s 3
physical kumite. We fight with God, we fight with the Devi, we fight with our own
restless souls, we create enemies and fight them too. We fight with all our hearts and
we fight with allour might. Strength, endurance, speed. We fight one battle after the
next, we feel no pain, we have no fear, we just keep fighting to persevere. Focus, we.
need to focus, we muststay focused, can't ose our focus. Like an eagle we swoop, ke a
tger we strke. We strike back when struck, we swing when swung upon, we initiate and
‘engage and we combatthe battles we lose only to inspire us to comeback and fight
harder and harder and harder. Punch, kick, strike. We fight and we struggle and we
resist. Everyday s a kumie, step into the arena, step into the ing, step into the dojo,
step onto the mat. Come out to the yard, step onto the battlefield. Gladiator, samurai,
soldier, kyokushin, warrior, guerrilla,prisoner. Fight! Fight! Fight!

€l Coyote
BUT UNTIL THEN

The mindless minds in these endless times do not
want to think, because thinking is too real. The
heartless hearts in these lonely, miserable times,
do not want to think. We do not want to have to
feel or deal with reality or face life, because
it's all too much, it's all too real.

So we nullify, dull, deteriorate, and dumb
ourselves down with television, magazines,
gangsterism, fantasies and day dreams. We let our
minds fade away with our lives, silently hoping and
watching for something to come along and shake us,
awaken us and snap us back into reality, causing us
to take charge of our situation before it's too
late, causing us to take control of our lives, with
that long, forgotten fire burning and raging in our
hearts and minds once again. We sit and we pray
and we hope and we wish that one day, some day, we
may reawaken to the passion of life and be able to
déal with reality, once again.

But until then, we turn our minds off and our
televisions on. We put our books down and pick up
magazines full of fakeness and materialism and we
sit here and fade away, until a rainy day, fuck the
world, we say....

The Writings on the Wall

“Fuck the Police”. These 3 words can be found everywhere in these madhouses. Fuck
the police, scribed on the wall, fuck the police, scratched into the desks, fuck the
police, carved into the bunks, fuck the police, etched into the doors, etched into our
minds. Fuck those slimy, greasy bastards, fuck them pigs.

That s the frst commandment that we five b i here, the golden rule, as we iv jn
these volatie situations, hosiity towards our captors s the fuel that keeps us going.
The correctional officers are the police, they work fo the system, the government, s0
they're pigs too. The rat, the sntches;the informants and the inmates on protective
custody, they are the police t00. They work or the man, cooperating and operating
against ther prisoners, though they are pisoners themselves. I this world, that makes
them the biggest pieces of shits around these sitfilled sewers. ot even the pigs
respect them, they re cowards, and they are the polce to0, 5o fuck them.

‘Thisin prison, this isn't Disneyland. People aren't playing, not everybody i friendly
‘around here, there are some peaple around here who would stick some steel in your
neck, without blinking an eye, then go walk back to the table, sit down and eat their
‘meal, or your meal, like nothing happened. Thisi prison.

Fuck the system, that's what we say when we pray, cuz that's what we feelin our
hearts. We know this ain't right, we know its foul, we know we're being screwed,
cheated, manipulated and deceived. We know it in our hearts. Fuck the system.

‘Welive with so much hostilty in our hearts,i’s what motivates us to stay alive, but it's
2 double-edged sword as we continue on the path of SELF-DESTRUCTION cuz we do not
truly understand how we can actually rise above this madness, we do not truly
‘comprehend how we can escape these chains and live truthfully.

Allwe know i piracy, bandity, hoodlumism, thuggery, and gangsterism, that's all e
Know as we sit here and say fuck the system. We don't ask ourselves, o each other,
how can we organize ourselves in here? We don'task ourselves, o each other, how can
we elevate ourseives in here? We don't ask ourseives, or each other, how can we five
truthfuly, how can we get free and rise above this oppression? We don't think about
these things, because we don't see the possibilty of these things, as we are blinded by
‘our own ignorance and blinded by our own volence towards one another, we can't see
past our own futie situations, all we know i that we have to survive, 5o we don't get
cheated or shorted or knocked off by the next motherfucker.
But the writings on the wall for those who want to read it its right there, etched,
sketched, scratched, scribed, carved or written, i’ right there. Three words, fuck the
police, it'sright there, written on the wall desk, bunk, ceiling,floor, tsright there.

Fables,
Leo Tolstay,
182821910

£ Coyote

An eagle built a nest on a tres, and hatched out some
eaglets, and a wild sow brought her litter under the tree, and
the sou rooted around the tree and hunted in the woods, amd
when night came she would bring her young something to eat.
And the eagle and the sow lived in neighborly fashion. And
2 grimalkin 1aid her plans to destroy the eaglets and the little
sucking pigs. She went to the eagle and said: "Eagle you had
better not fly very far away. Beware of the sov, she iz planning
an evil design. She is going to undermine the roots of the
tree. You see she is rooting all the time."

Then the grimalkin went to the sow and said: "Sow, you
have not a good neighbor. Last evening I heard the cagle saying
to her eaglets: "My dear little eaglets, I am going to treat
You to a nice little pig. Just as the sow is gone, I will bring
Yyou a little young sucking pig:®

From that time the eagle ceased to (ly out after prey,
and the sou did not go any more into the forrest. The eaglets
and the young pigs perished of starvation, and the grim
feasted on then.

The interests of the State and those of the
individual differ fundamentally and are antagonistic.
The State and the political and economic institutions
that it supports can exist only by fashioning the
individual to their particular purpose; training him to
respect “law and order”; teaching him obedience,
submission, unquestioning faith in the wisdom and
Jjustice of government, above all, loyal service and
complete self-sacrifice when the State commands it, as in
war. The State puts itself and its interests even above the
claims of religion and God. It punishes religious or
conscientious scruples against individuality because
there is no individuality without liberty, and liberty is
the greatest menace to authority.

Emma Goldman

BEWARE OF THE GRIMALKIN®
True seekers of knowledge would probably appreciate the

a7t that there is a lot of wisdom and knowledge to be found

in fables. Practically every culture has their own fables,

there is so much that can be learned from fables, things like

strategy, wisdom, practical vays of living, counsel and

instructions on various themes of life. How could one not |

apereciate a good fable every now and then right? So, I wanted

to share this particular fable with you, because there's a lot

°f truth in it, truth that applies to our everyday situation

as prisoners. .
The strategy of the grimalkin in this fable is very similar

o that of the "Divide and Conquer” strategy that our oppressors

%o on us today. When we become mistrustful of eachother, when

e fiaht eachother and kil eachother, we are giving our
operessor (the grimalkin) - our true enemy - absolute power
over us. As long as we are going at it with eachother, they
407"t have to worry about us trying to rise up against them.
fio can we be eachothers enemy when we are in the same
enmunities, prisons and in the trenches together, going
throuah the same shit, suffering from the same type of poverty
and the sare afflictions together? No, brothers and sisters,
¥e are nct eachothers enemies, we need to stop hating eachother
an1 core to reslize that it's the grimalkin who is profiting
“ff of our self-destructive behavior, the grimalkin is our true
The sooner ve realize this the sooner we will be able to
teach some type of middle-ground between us and eventually we
a0 try to come tonether and run the grimalkin down. There's .
ssons that can be learned from this fable of the
“Faale and the Sow.

But one of the most important one is one

o BlAnst, "Wnos your Enemy."

coyote, 2006
HAYMARKET Ely State Prison
Dear Mr. Correctional Officer, 19

Al want is what | got coming and for you to leave me alone. There's no need to stop at
my cell and ask me how am | doing today, you don't care how 'm doing, you don't really
want to know how I'm doing, you only ask to see what kind of state of mind m in, if 'm
‘on some “fuck the police shit” orifFm safe for you to be around, that's the only reason
You ask how F'm doing today, to make sure you're safe, not cuz you actually care, so
‘don't even ask. No need to stand at my door smiling, being nice, trying to hold a fake a5
‘conversation with me about this, that or the other, if | need something et you know,
i not just give me my meal, or my mail or whatever and move on.

1 don't want your lttle extras, the last thing | want is o be spoiled by the pigs, so you
an keep your lttle extra this and your ltle extra that, take it and give it to one of your
little rats. 1 don't want it | don't need i, just give me my full issue of what Fm supposed
10 get and roll on to the next cell. Just leave me alone and Il leave you alone, but f you
80 0ut of your way to mess with me, then I'm going to go out of my way to mess with
‘You. And this s going to be an unsafe environment for both of s,

Thank you. Have a nice day.

Think about these prison environments for a moment.
People screaming day and night, rape and the spread of
serious diseases, such as AIDS, hepatitis, venereal
diseases and everything else is epidemic, as if
deliberately cultured in a Petri dish. Violence, longing,
bitterness, hopelessness, self-loathing are coupled with
the schooling of criminality. Useful programs, under
this madhouse environment, have been gutted. There’s
no real rehabilitation, no re-entry programs. They are
left to live or die in this minimalist warehouse
situation... In Amerikkka, they torture and try to kill the
spirit of people, whereas in El Salvador, the U.S-trained
authorities were allowed to go all the way - torture and
kill and leave the mutilated bodies for the vultures to
pick over at the dump sites - just like the U.S. perfected
in the Phoenix Program in Vietnam. For, a community
cannot live without spirit - without hope of genuine
humanity.

Anthony Rayson
‘The Thoughts of an Exlle 20
While I i, stand, ay here I tis cel, exiedfrom American solety and confined to 4 gruesome walls
that were lentionally designed 1o break me allthe way down, my heart beats furously, et proudy
‘wih esistance and | ry o keep my mind open, heart open and eyes open, eaching out for truthful
Knowledge andfor deeper understandings of s, ove and e, | read, study. | wrte, | contemplte
and reflect, 1 hold discusions, 1 have conversations and ty 0 engage others.

10 these dungeons we are cut ot from family, cut offfrom the workd and cut offrom real
ducation, but the people i here who lingr,krk and festr n these graveyards seem 10 love to
eam al they can about their own hstory, culture, hritage and tradtions,even though they e
usually conskdered lower than dirt inthe eyes and minds ofsocity, they st cary thei pride of who
they are and they hang on to thatvery tighly. 1 relly g that

There are defnitely some powerful and dangerous minds urking I some of these el people who
have taken true means to et the shackle, chains, cuffs and restralntsfrom thelr minds. | feel blssed
10 have been abie to come in contact with people i this clandestine workd who could be o
Inteligent,artistc and resourceful, even while conined 103 cold, hateful, primitve place ke ths.
s because of these experiences and because of meeting these people tha It eel g00d to be lower

than din, t feels good 1 be 5o cose 1 the earth. | apprecate the blessings and thelessons of being.
anexie.

Whie | write tis, Fm on the second day o a &-dayfast with a native comrade of min. He tod me

e was g0ing 10 g0 0n 2 fas or a few days, to s things i orer with il and tha he'd holer at
me inafew days. 524, “Hey, wait a minutel 1l o t withyou.” S, here | m on the second day of
thsfast trying to stay strong and focused, o taking, no eatng and no masturbating: and tring to
Veep negative thoughts outof my head. My native comrade Xemo has his reasonsforgoing on his

Fast. which are mosty spirtual, and 1 have my reasons and objectives.

Fist, | wanted 10 show him sofidart, s he i someone 1 feel connected o in meaningful wars, 0
‘wanted to encourage him o keep going and 1o get his mind rght, heart ight,sou ight.Prison 't
the most postive or productive lace, and we it her amongst i this hate, madness, volence,
angstersm, materiasm and comuption, s had not o get ought up in, I’ hard ot to think ke
a1 those around you, s hard torse above . 5o, mew I were to g0 on this astwith my native
comrade, t would inspire and motvate hm to hokstrong.Secondl, | feh the need 1 do this for
mvset, 1o back up off the oo, take my mind away from hi place and tune into mysel and mosty
to challenge mysel.

To me, fastng i an actof enduring pain and coming out of R sronger, s an act of acrfice. I calls
for me to wilmyself 10 keep going under desperatestuatons,to keep fighting to keep ressting. to
Keep hokding on, o stay focused, o stay dsciplned and o tay strong, Ofcourse, thre are deeper
spitual meanings atached {0 . But 'l have to agmit that this ast st really for sprtual purposes.
for me, ther than sacrficing my food, conversation,urges and desires to will mysel t0 endure and
overcome anguish, pain and torment, and m doing hi o pepare myseffo future hardships.
Those are my reasons for taking up thi ast.

¥emo tell me stoies, sings me songs in Crow, sings me songs in Lakota, sings me songs in Shoshone.
He sings songs about the eagle, he sings songs about the bear,he singssongs about the
etermination of the woll He tught me how 0 5ing a healing 50ng and h taught me how 10 sing 3
ity s0ng, He 1l me something good about the coyote, h says 2 Coyote can 3dapt 10 any
situation, you cantake a coyote out o the Nevadsa desert and put the coyote n Africa and the coyote.
il find 3 way 10 survive. | will weays remember that

belleve we become stronger through our pain, we become wiser, witha learer outlook on e, »
keener insghi, and more compassionate and understandingsfer overcoming, o enduring sruggles
and pinful ituations. | believe we need 10 be challenged by e, every now and again, and 's
through these challenges that we grow (sprtually) and develop (mentalh) and transform our
hinking into igher states of consciousness. 2/

¢ aboutthe mind, body and soul Is about atonement I’ spirtual, mental and physical, i not
‘ol about being a warior, but s about being aie. This i not my fist fast, but Fve learned ot
from Xemo, ‘iz he was ind encughto take the time t reach out to me and teach me things sbout
iscuture, which st much dferent from the Yaquis, Artecs and Mayas, and | am very apprecatne
formyfriend'stime and kindness, and t ek good o hear himsing his30ngs, he sings from deep
hissoul

My apprecition of these gifsleads me to wrtethis brief report on it and incude i inthis zine, 1o
8ive people a smallpeak ntothe e and mind of an exle. We prisoners ae exies, because we ve
een il from e, xild from society, exded from real, human relaionships, exied from e
‘and traditions and customs an celebrations, but a ong 25 we choose to keep the things that are
most important {0 us n our heart, then we ar sill tvving and surviving

Theres 2 iference between iwing and maintaining, people in prison aren't ving, we're maintining
and some ofusaren'teven doing that. Times are hard i prison, thi place can make your heart hard
ke cement and your 50ul col ik steel Thi place breeds hate and anger. A lotof people are

From the depths o my resiess heart,
Corote
EsP.2008

Sure, if a prisoner totally submits and
kisses the guards asses and snitches on other
Pprisoners, he may better his treatment, but this
is spineless behavior.

John Phillips
In Solitude I Suffer 22

Though | am lovea. | am alone, Iet 0 it and sufferin acold,desolate cell of
Sonfinement. On the cther side of these prison gates | have many people wh love and
care shout me, who are touched by my cowrage and compassion. and who are moved by
my love for them and by my love for life,freedom, and justice. The sad reality, though,
is that they're out there and I'm in here,alone .

Tam surrounded by people who like to think tha they're my enemies, surounded

b felness and perversion, and blanketed by sheer coldness. | have no friends, justa ’
e people that 1 1alk 10 from time to time, people who share no true felings of

onversations might be good sometimes, and comforting, .
but there’s no camaraderic between us. People in here will alk 10 you one day and then

<onnectedness with me; 1

ide that they don't want 0 talk 10 you ever again; that's just the way it goes in here.
ing that a prisoner has o deal with, knowing that the only person in here thet
vou can truly depend on is yourself

We have t0 find ways to deal with this loneiness so it doesn'ttake us under.
Oercoming lonelines is a huge part of survival i prison. Loneliness s painful. I's
agonizing 10 my soul. To know that | could be i here,in this world, with other people
around me, i cells next o me, above or below me, and sil feel unconnected to anyone,
and sill el Tike 1 don'trealy know someone, o that nobody really understands me, and
e fel Tike | cannot truls trust another man in here it defines the feling of sufering.
To be alone is to suffe.

I solitude I suffer My heart dics, my blood furns cold and the spark of lfe

leaves my eyes; when you look into them now all you can see s anger, pain, loneliness,

and suffering, and al 1 can doi st here and ask myself, what have 1 done to deserve
his? What did 1 do to have to be forced tolive in such torment?

For I know in my heart of hearts that 'm a good man. [ know in my heart that |
Tive by the principles of rightcousness, respect, honor, integrity, faimess, equality; and I
Lo that 1 3m 3 man who has stood up for my belicfs and who has stood up for my
ights,and sho has also been beaten down for standing up for them. But sill | am left 10

in solitude, ike | am some kind of piece of shil or something

In prison that's the price we have to pay for being a man who stands up for

himself and for what he believes is good and right. We have to pay for that by sitting and
suffring in solitary confinement i the authoritis fel that they have broken you
down. They ry 0 break your wil, beak yourspirit nd your determination, and the ey
1o destroy you. The thingsthat we see as good and the things that we se as being right
ar the things that we are being punished fo. 23
1sithere in solitude, fecling 50 lone. Tormented by ms loneliness, and even
though another man lives n th cell 10 my right,and another man lives n the cellto y
Tef, and a man lives inthe cellright abose me, | feel no connection with any of thern;
there's notust berween us and absolutly no sense of camaraderie and it ilsme s
Tunderstand that all of this s by design, and I want 1o be stong, | want o resis, |
want t0 overcome, because | know | can't give in, | know 1 can' sumender, | know |
can't et my oppressors beak me; but decp down nside | know that no matter what do
1 cannot in,forcither way they ae slowly destoying me; whether | fight or surender,
they have aleady won. But | just can't give them the satisfaction inleting them know

de.

that hey've destroyed me with lonelincss, 5o | continue o fight and | continue toresist,
because anything less would be suicidal
From the depths of my restless soul,
Coyore
Ely State Prison, Nevada
October 25, 2007

The State is force. Nay, it is the silly parading of
force. It does not propose Lo win love or make converts, if
it puts its finger into anything, it does so in an
unfriendly way, for its essence consists not in persuasion,
but in command and compulsion. However much pain it
may take away, it cannot conceal the fact that it is the
legal maimer of our will, the constant negation of our
liberty. Even when it commands the good, it makes this
valueless by commanding it, for every commands slaps
liberty in the face, as soon as the good is commanded, it
is transformed into evil in the eyes of the true (that is,
human, by no means divine) morality, of the dignity of
man, of liberty; for man’s liberty, morality, and dignity
consist precisely of doing the good not because he is
commanded to but because he recognizes it, wills it, and
loves it.

Mikhail Bakunin
Free your Mind 24

Let us abandon our restrictions and live freely from the truth of our hearts. Let us love.
ffe 35 we love our children, and let s love our children as we love fife.

The walls of these prisons can only keep our bodies contained for 5o long, but cannot
close in on our minds when we live with resistance in our hearts. | encourage you who
read this to leam how to think for yourselves.

Inthese cells of seclusion we lean to embrace knowledge in ts rawest form and when
You have become accustomed to embrace what i real and what s true, you naturally
reject al that s false and untrue.

Let us abandon our falsehoods as we embrace knowledge and let us share our
knowledge to those in need of i, 5o that the mind of the prisoner can abandon his
shackles once for always.

The seeds of resistance have been planted in the sollof the prisoners’ heart and bears
fruitin the prisoners’ mind. Consciousness s forever sweet and so fullof soul. It should
always be shared and enjoyed. Hold on to i, but pass it on.

Nolove for authorty,
Coyote
June 8”. 2008

On Heart

Resistance s in my heart and it stays in my heart. As humans we grow, we develop and
‘we change, but some things never change. Resistance has always been in my heart and
always will be. The things that are in our hearts are the things that keep us going, what's
in your heart stays in your heart, unless you lose your heart, and if you lose your heart
Vou pretty much die. Your heart i ke your ifefine, when you lose your heart you lose:
Your ife. | take this Ierally, ‘cuz 'm a soldier and 1 know what'sin my heart, and what
keeps it going. Is not hate, i’ love. Love for yoursel,love for e, love for freedom,
Justice and equality. My resistance comes from love, not hate, and s what keeps me
going, it's whatisin my heart. Love, resistance, truth.

From the depths of my lawless heart,

Coyote
Ely State Prison 2008
DESPAIR 25

These walls were built with hate and I imagine
that they will be destroyed with hate. In a
sanitarium we live, we struggle, and we die. How do
we overcome this?

They call it ELY STATE PRISON, I call it Ely State
Zoo. Come watch us and see what we do while we sit
in our cages. Listen to our beastly roars and cur
soul-wretching howls and our lonesome chirps. e
live in cages called cells. We live in hell where
despair pervades the atmnsphere of our hearts. e
Live in institutions where the air is stale and the
walls are pale. He live in agony.

Listen to the sound of dread as it enters your
cell through the ventilation system. "Fuck the
system, buck the system: words that still ring in
our ears, even though some stopped trying a long
time ago. We don't care any more, and when you stcp
carying, you begin to go numb and your mind
deteriorates, crumbles, fades..

We are the wretched, the little people with broken
souls, holding on to death, refusing to let go.

This is my profane existance as I sit here and try
0 explain resistance. When my soul gets cold, the
hate unfolds, and onto a path of destruction I go.

Despair fills the air in here, another day,
another year. When she thinks of me, she sheds &
tear.

Coycte
December 20th 2007

With each zine, you have no idea how many self-hating
and incapacitated zombies you have plucked from the
fascist’s garbage dump. You have no idea how many
untamable and uncontainable freedom fighters you
shaped who will never again submit to slavery -
psychological or otherwise.

Sean Swain
Buried Alive 26

‘They ve got us confined to these cells, where we are intellectually suffocating, in
desperate need of lterature, books, love, compassion and support. Being in this
graveyard s ke walking down an endless, dark tunnel, with no end, no light, no hope in
sight, trapped in a box with no visible exit, We have to be soldiers in these

circumstances where the means of survival g0 beyond guerita warfare: this is a
battlefeld for the mind.

Looking at my situation, I see myself confined, locked down in the darkest layers of
dungeon cell, surrounded by animals: human animals. Animals who were once human,
but who have been stripped of their sanity, and who have no control over their own
mental capacity. These beasts have lost their souls and there’s nothing nobody can do
about I, and they try to inflct their insanity upon me so that | can be miserable ike
them. Call t paranoia, but | feellike the administration has intentionally put these sick
‘motherfuckers next to me, above me and around me, just 5o they can show me what

type of ‘weirda’ they want me to be; what type of sck monster they want me to
become.

But on the contrary, the more I'm subjected t0 these miserable “mind-torturers”, the
more love | have for myself, and the more | love myself the more | hate these pigs, ‘cuz |
see what they re trying to do to me. | strive to be stronger, mentally, physically,
spiritually and emotionally. The harder 1 strive, whether It be for strength, for unity, for
Solidartty, or even self-education, it seems; or feelslike the more these pigs are trying to
Knock me to my knees. They try to knock me down and tear me apart, they try to tear
my soul apart, my mind, they try to tear me apart from friends, family, comrades and
fellow convicts. This s how | feel as these wall seem to cose in on me, feel ke these
pigs are trying to destroy me, | feel like they re trying to bury me alive n this graveyar.

We sit here and rot n these chambers of torture, designed to murder our wils, break
our hearts, devour our spirits and bury us in our own agony, n attempts of transforming.

s into animals fike the weirdoes who are caged in the cells next to us, above us, and all
around us.

5o many youngsters get locked up in this foul ass system, and ftseems like
consciousness has died in the hearts and minds and spirits of many of the incarcerated
Youth. There's no inspiration, no direction, no worthy cause to believe in, no reason for
them to come together and settle their disputes, no reason to put their guards down
and unite. | don't see I, | don'tfeel it except in my own heart. People around here are.
lost, confused, mislead, and i's a tragedy.

To shift indigenous religions with Christianity is a
rape - a violation that has led us to where we are now.
Carolyn Baker

| wank to encourage the prisoners at Ely State Prison who read this o startstudying the
law and find ways t0 buck the system, beat and cheat the system that’s beating and
cheating you. Study anything you can study, whatever interests you. [ want o 2.7
‘encourage prisoners to start taking true strides to pick themselves up, to move forward,
to better themselves, and to buck the system that contains you and holds you captive to
this ongoing madness. | want to encourage prisoners to stat turning their televisions off
2t least twice a week and spend the day reading, studying and writing. Do something to
benefit and strengthen your mind. Do something to benefit and strengthen your
position in ife. Just ‘cuz they've got our bodies held captive, doesn't mean we should let
them hold our minds captive. Once we start taking serious strides to improve ourselves
and improve our conditions, once we start doing something real with our time, then we
can start doing something real with our lives.

Because they're trying 10 bury us aive i these graveyards, leaving us to sk alone in
these suffocating cells until our mind goes crazy, deteriorates, or untilwe are 5o messed
P that all we can think about is murder, violence and revenge, becau<a that's what this
fong:term isolation does to us, if we et t

'm stil alive, in good spiits and my mind s intact, 50 | must be doing something rght,
They try to knock me down, but fm sil standing. | have one mind, one heart and they
can'tsrip me of my soul, m 00 sirong for that. The more they try to break my wil, the
stronger | have to be. I’ all about resistance, it al about keeping the mind, body and
spirtin good shape. fm siting here doing things, elevating and educating mysel,
€08aging others, talking and lstening and there are people inhere Kike me, justtrying to
maintain thelr existence. We're living i the only way we know how. ive in struggle and
! struggle to live, and this al | knowl They want to bury me aiive, but Fm plotting on
Ways to take that shovel out of their hands and beat them over the head with itl That's
what's happening.

From the depths of this darkness,
Covote
Ely State Prison, Nevada

For letters of encouragement, please send letters to Coyote.

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Ely, Novada
89301-1989

STAGNATION 29

Minds evaporate in these prisons, ffe becomes redundant after sitting in these
cells day in and day out. Doing the same thing over and over again, your brain
begins to deteriorate. We are fike water in a pond; there’s no flow in our lives, so
we slowly become stagnant, and just fike stagnant water we build up with all
kinds of bacteria and we becomes poisonous. We need to flow, we need to stay
active, we need to stay productive, or else we become stagnant and poisonous;
we become dull and senseless and our fives become miserable and pointless.
Stagnation is misery and in these conditions, misery is death. Feed your mind,
tune your inteflect, read, study, and leam new things. Apply yoursel, apply the
new knowledge you leam. Grow, develop, create and transcend. Rise above
the dirty pool of stagnant water, breathe, let your mind flow until t develops into a
beautiful mind. a dangerous mind, a briiant mind, a powerful mind. Let your
mind flow.

Coyote 2008
Ely State Prison

TODAY IS A GOOD DAY TO LIVE

Siting up in these saltary confinement cells, for years on end. | used to always
weave up and tell myself that today is a g00d day to die. But. today s different. s a
g00d day today. | am pleased with the things | am seeing today. The good spiits
and cheer of thy- convicts around me definately seems to be resonating with me.
T is 2 gond day 1o Ive

| rarievad 2 letter in the mail st night and its always good to know there are peopis
it there who actually care about me, about my Struggles. and situations and about
wha's going on in here. It efinitely a 00d thing to maintain a solid connection with
feopie on the outside.

Here, where I at, the pickle:suits do not pass ou the mail until gt time, s we.
have to wart all day and al night,just to see if we get something or not. s aiways

uplifting to our spirts 1o recieve a ltter from someane or a piece of mail. For some
of us, s the only thing we have to 100k forward to each day in here, so that's one of

the things that has me feeling real good about ife ight now.

Im also glad to see that other prisoners are on 10p of their game. There's a guy in
the cell a few doors down from me, to my teft, who is doing his work-out routing ight
now. | can hear him counting his sets: “one, two, three: ONE. one, two, three, TWO.
one, two, three, THREE". There's another prisoner in the cell a few doors down from
me, to my right, who's working on his case-legal work. Thal's some hard stuff to
figure out. It takes a lot of time, study, and pracice. Its never easy when you're
rying 0 g0 up against a system that owns the law, wries the law, and makes the
law. But, we all know those people don't play fair. There's aiways gonna be some
kind've dirt on them, so is always possible o beat them at their own gamel ts
definately g00d 10 see people on the grind in here, ts go0d to know that theyre
rying. ts g00d to know that they sill have some fight left in them, and its always
€00 10 know that they haven' given up. 29

There are other prisoners all around me, in their cells, who are either exercising,
reading, wrting. or who are deep into their studies. One of my neighbors, who | often
have study sessions with, was talking to me about different styles of study; how.
‘someone could really get a good study program down if he was truly serious about
his studies. He said there are all kinds of things a prisoner can study i he really
wants t0 lear something and not only lear, but apply it too. 1 told him 1 feel him on
that. There's a lot o people who read, but don' really take the time to think about
What they read. They dont absorb i, they don' try to memorize it, and they dont fry
10 apply it They just read to pass the time, which is cool, | guess, because its better
to be doing something producive to pass the time than to be on a path of self-
destruction, of to even be wastng ticks on a bunch of urelevant nonsense. He saig
that he agreed with me and that sometirmes he'll spend 2-3 hours reflecting on one
sentence. He'l take his etymological dictionary out. he'l break out his encyclopedia
and other reference materils and he'l ook at the 100t word 10 find out where the
word originated from, what it means, and when it came into use. Then, he will just sit
back and really think about the entire sentence, 0 see whal was undermeath the.
surface. AllI could say 1o that was, "WOW." | definately appreciated his

conversation. and that's another thing that s e feeling good about th day (waa,

So far. there hasn't been any negativity today. nobody yelling or screaming out the
side of their doors, calling other prisoner obscene names. Nobody's tipping on the
PIgS and they aren't gOing out of their way 10 mess with any of us tocas. Cuer: e
Psych-patients seem 1o be quiet today. No banging on the desks or kicking or the
‘do0rs - and they haven't been yelling and screaniing at al today, like they often do.

‘The morale amongst the prisoners on this tie seems to be pretty good. The.
conversatons have been productive and uplfting, | can definitely sense that
everybody's feeling pretty g00d about themselves today. Everybody's oking, laughing
and Nobody's stressing. nobody seems to feel the need to be a tough guy or prove.
themseles 1o the next man. There’s a sense of community on the tier today. It ot
something you see around here often o s always a good feeling when it shines
forth.
Teday s 2 good day to ive. | say that from the solitary confines of a prison cel, so |
must be saying something! They havent killed me, they haven' stripped my spirt or
my joy for lfe. My love for freedom il emains strong. They can' stop me from

oving e orfrom feeling human. Tm alie and f feels good (o be lve. 3.0
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WE MUST KEEP RESISTANCE IN OUR HEARTS

#5 we swim through the gloominess and murkiness of the freacherous
waters of prison fite, we must stay focused, we must stay determined and
ve must keep resistonce in our hearts. Resitance fo death, resistance to
toredom, resistance 1o stupidity. resistance fo stagnation, resistance fo
neanity, resistance fo ignorance, resistance fo inhumanity, resistance fo
=coression and injustice-because resistance i the fruth.

e must reclly look out for each ofher. as much as we look out for
ourselves, because fhe way we ore iving in these graveyards is beyond
foul. You gotla keep your head above he water. you gotta keep your
mind ight and be careful of bifter people. Stay away from miserable,
Fotetul people and be caufious of those who want 0 forever remain
stuck on being stupid. Be careful of those peopie standing at their doors,
*aiting out fhe side of thei necks, frying extra hard fo advertise themselves
5 real motherfuckers, hard motherfuckers, bad motherfuckers. s usually
eocie who go the extra mile fo adverse themselves as this and that,
whc are nof only insecure of who they are, bul are also unfrustworthy and
crobably under-cover informants, or cell thieves. Don't be ike hat ond
ar' fallinto that trap. Keep resistance and ruth in your heart and
#=h2nass can't and won't fouch you, of even come near you.

Stingin G cell with 4 walls o keep you company on cold, lonely nights,
is 0 perfect fime for us 10 fake a deeper ook info fo ourselves and fo Take.
er. more crifical look f our ives. Use fhis fime as an opportunily.
Iock ot it @5 o blessing. Don't lef others define what real s for you. Take o
hord, crifical ook ot things, question everylhing you hear ond everything

vou see and let yourselt find your own conclusions and definifions of what
reals; of what truth s

Try 1 use this fime fo foke @ deeper, horder look at who you are and o
deeper ook af what you stand for. Are you influenced mostly by your
envionment? Are you mostly influenced by your comrades and peers?
(150 i this good or bad? Why?), or are you mostly influenced by what
begts in vour hear! and what flows through your veinse

Toke a deeper look at what makes you fick and af your reasoning's, 3
judgments, and motives of why you do what you do. Use this fime fo
really get fo know yourselt, because people who are true fo themselves
know who and what they are, and they are apt fo be resistant fowaras
anything that isn' frue. We must be frue 10 ourselves under these.
citcumsiances, or we wil drown in these dirly. freacherous waters of priscn
life. Don't be o follower, fuck being a leader-just be frue fo yourself and
fo those who are frue 1o you.

Resistance is a fruthiul woy of ife. Resistance is obsolulely necessary ardl
absolutely mandatory in these graveyards. Is good 10 seek fruth. ifs Gooa
fo be rue. Watch out for fokes and snakes-fhey'e everywhere. Walch
out for people who are frying fo pull you under Ihe rip- fide. just 1o keep.
themselves from drowning. Be frue 1o you, keep resistance in your heart

Coyote
ESP 2008

LIFE IS 6OOD

If you love lfe, you're going to live life. You're going fo find a way To
prevail, you're going fo keep pushing, keep striving. You're going fo find a
Way to survive, fo shine, and fo make it through each difficult situation.

Those who love life are going to live life, no matter where they're at in life
Jail, prison, a broken home, stuck in a bad relationship, stuck in poverty, the
ghetto, on the reservation, in the projects... Whatever, wherever. you're
going 1o find a way to keep existing, because you love life 100 much fo let
Yourself fade, break, wither, and die.

Tlove life, and T'm living my life. I'm here, stuck in this hell hole, but I'm
still alive, and T'm going 1o stay alive because I'm thankful fo be alive. T
wake up everyday feeling good, because T know I'm a good motherfucker. T
wake up everyday feeling thankful cuz I know I'm blessed

T deal with the struggles of being in prison and I keep moving. T deal with
the despair, T deal with the agony. the suffering, the misery, and T keep
living. T deal with the depression, I deal with the destruction and I deal
with the hate. T keep loving life and T keep living my life. Life is beautiful,
I'm thankful to be alive. T live in a graveyard, but I'm not dead, I'm alive.
and well.

El Coyote
May 2, 2008
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